Time anxiety
I found this message on a sticky note:
“What if I told you you are right on time and every detour you’re making is laying the groundwork for your masterpiece?
It can take time. It can be a masterpiece.
God heard you the first time. Other things need to line up first.”
Let it land
“You don’t always have to chase meaning, you sometimes just have to let it land. And often when you let it, it lands where you least expect it – somewhere between the second cup of coffee and the sun warming your skin.”
—The Tension Between Rest and Living Fully, Thinking On the Way
Where’d my energy go?
From Loss of Motivation and Energy During Awakening–I had ChatGPT summarize:
Right now, motivation feels flat—and that’s okay. The old “doer” ego, the one always proving and chasing, is running out of fuel. Your usual drive feels off because the ego-driven push is fading, and the quieter pull of what’s real for you hasn’t fully arrived.
Awakening is like walking through no man’s land: between who you were and who you’re becoming. You might feel lost or unmotivated, but this fog is actually space for something new to emerge.
It’s also a mirror: old wounds, judgments, and habits get magnified, inviting healing. Criticism may sting more, but that’s just old patterns surfacing.
The good news? You can stop feeding the false identity. Let ego energy deplete and trust that your true self is quietly showing up, piece by piece. Some days feel flat, some bright. Both are part of the process. Stay curious, patient, and allow yourself to simply be—without forcing, fixing, or figuring it all out.
